Today has been an extremely bizarre day. Woke up from an extremely bizarre dream that involved a dream world within my dream, and to be woken up I had to be staked, like a vampire on True Blood. So, with that jolly start to my day, things just kept getting weirder.
I actually got to spend a little time with my mom, which was lovely. We talked about my road trip, and that I plan on spending way too much money on a guitar. It was nice. Then we decided to both take naps, and about 20 minutes into said naps there was a knock on the door. Two friends were here to tell us that they couldn't get a hold of my dad and that the roof of his house had been blown off by a tornado. Yes, you read that right, a tornado, in West Yellowstone, Montana. The first one ever on record, and it hit my dad's house.
Thankfully it only took down some trees (some MAJOR trees, up, clean out by the roots), and took the roof off part of the house and blew over some trailers and stuff. And the upstairs was never truly exposed, just the unfinished attic. There was some scurrying to get tarps to cover where the roof used to be though, to keep the rain from destroying the upstairs.
After all that craziness, which included an attempt to introduce my dad's cat Pesto to my cat, Pooka (epic fail), I finally got to the theatre. We had an amazing house, we were almost sold out, and after my first exit, I got applause!! It was unreal. I have never experienced exit applause until tonight. It was such an amazing feeling. It was a great show.
Tomorrow, I will be going to the Mormon church. Yes, again, you read that right. I, Clare Edgerton, atheist, will be attending the sacrament meeting at the LDS church here in West Yellowstone. We, as the Pinecone Players, will be leading the sacrament meeting and singing and such. Then we will head into Yellowstone to do it again at two short services at Canyon and Lake. All in all, between the tornado, the applause and me walking into a Mormon church to help LEAD a worship service, it is shaping up to be one of the stranger weekends of my life.
Two other really fun things did happen today though. I started to finalize things for my road trip. It is really beginning to take shape. And I think I have decided on what guitar that I'm getting. I am very excited for both things because they are both integral parts of my new plan to really try and find myself.
I know that sounds a little crazy and new age and woo woo, and I haven't exactly lost myself, but in a way I do feel I have put aside myself for the summer. For a while now I've been someone I don't really recognize as myself. And I'm ready to find out who adult Clare is. I am ready for some time to myself. For some time to write, to read, to drive, to walk, to play, to just BE. I am ready to be me. To do me. To learn who I am as an independent adult. I know I may be putting a mite bit too much pressure on this road trip as the 'salvation after the summer,' or something like that, but I really do believe it will be good for me.
However, I am going to start working on finding myself before I leave. Heck, tomorrow, or even right now. I need to start making decisions for the betterment of my physical, emotional and spiritual health. And I need to let go of other people for a little while. The ones who matter will hold on to me or still be there when I get back. I think I cling to much, so step number one of the self discover/self improvement adventure: let go. let go. let go.
Mmmm. Ahhh... Just typing it feels good.
So, that is all for this crazy night.
Namaste. Be love.
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